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When Fear Keeps Us From Living

Last summer, my husband begged me to go to Montana and I told him I would, as long as we could have a professional tour guide and go “GLAMPING.”

And . . . we ended up in Southern California (with a free place to stay; sorry Montana, maybe next time).

These are my kind of people. Beach. All Day.

I was thoroughly enjoying the beach with the rest of my people when Jamus, aka Indiana Jones, decided he wanted to go on a Hike.  (He just would not let it go).  Some dreams need to die.

I said, “Okay honey, see ya when you get back!”

He gave me the puppy dog face, layered with guilt and much condemnation and said without saying, “You’re not coming?”

Let the Adventure Begin

At the bottom of the trail (Yes, we would be hiking UP a mountain), the Kiosk had some very alarming information:

Beware of the local wildlife:  Bears, Mountain Lions, and RATTLESNAKES.  WHAT THE CRAP CALIFORNIA!!!!!

I thought surely after reading the alarming information, Jamus would chose to let his dream die.  Nope. I would rise my life for love.

I would like to tell you that Jamus had a pleasant traveling companion that accompanied him through this dusty and jagged terrain, but that would be lying.

What I can tell you is that I held the back of his shirt as he lead/dragged me through the wilderness, and I screamed anytime I heard the slightest buzz, crack, twig breaking, rock dropping, or fly buzzing by.  I kept saying “Jamus, did you heart that?  What was that?”

I cannot remember the last time I was so scared.  STOP LAUGHING AT ME!!!! So rude!!!!

 

I may have felt better (probably not) if we would have at least been packing a semi-automatic or a pocketknife at the very least.  I felt like this was not a wise decision.   “Annie Edwards, dead at the age 31, after refusing to go into fetal position during the grizzly attack.   Instead the mother of three tried to outrun a grizzly.”

I prayed the entire time.

The top of the mountain greeted with open arms and I breathed in the Lord’s faithfulness and then I SAW . . . The VIEW!  I had never seen anything like it.  I couldn’t believe it!  I climbed TO the top of this dangerous-cactus laden-deadly terrain and – I am ALIVE!  I was on top of the world, overlooking the ocean!!!!

running foot

Of course, there were pictures taken, markers of Gods grace and faithfulness along our journey, and much rejoicing.

There was a bench at the top of this mountain and I noticed the memorandum that said, “She rode the wave of life.”  (Yes. This.)

Before we journeyed back down to the beach, we passed some locals who informed us that it rattle snake season.

However, I wasn’t as scared on the journey back down because something new had clicked in my soul.  Somehow, the journey up the mountain proved something about God and myself.  I saw that the view was worth the journey. I no longer feared the mountain; now, I only feared missing the view.

I wonder what else fear has kept me from?   What about you?  Is God calling you to walk into new places and you are scared to go?  Start a new business?  Write a blog?  Get healthy?  Have accountability?  Join a bible study?  Move to a new town?  Try homeschooling? Learn a new hobby?

Know this…PERFECT LOVE cast out fear!   For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self discipline (2 Timothy 1:7).

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